Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Saturday, February 17, 2007
Having children or being "childless"
In honesty I would love to have 7 children in my life because I have raised children almost my whole life, working in a nursery taking care of many and seven is just my favorite number. I think women were created with the purpose to have create life so all, that god willing, can bear children should have one or two in their lives. The joy a child brings into your life, heart, and soul because they are a little part of you is amazing. I have tried to conceive a child since I was 15 with no luck so far but in 2003 I was blessed my godson who is also my youngest nephew. When he was born he changed my life in so many ways that I owe him more than I could ever explain. Children are a gift from above. The fact that I could help raise him from birth and be at his side for over two weeks in the hospital when he was born because he had pneumonia was our actual bonding experience after his birth. It as if he is my own child and I do everything I can to stay connected to him in every way. Parenthood can change one's priorities and perceptions on life in an instant and I would never change that fact and our bond for anything. He knows anything he wants or needs is in reach with me. Although I have not had a child I understand not every woman can and there is a perfect reason for it. I mean there are plenty of children born everyday, well probably every couple of minutes at that, around the world that can not be taken care of and either go into an adoption system or a foster home and they too are loved from a woman just as if they came from her themselves. It is great to know there are plenty of woman willing to raise children and I can agree with that because I plan on singing up for adoption when I turn 21 in May because I have heard the average wait to be interviewed and checked is 7 years so I am pretty sure I will have my degree and steady job title by then. I believe there is never an accident when a fetus is developing for any reason. Children are a part of a person that continues generations, completes a woman's purpose, and adds total joy and pleasure to everyone.
Saturday, February 10, 2007
Menarche
Other than that most of the experience was actually scary since one day I just bleed and my mother nor my two older sisters ever told me what was happening. Lucky my older cousin sat me down one day and gave me a talk about what I was going through and how my body would develop more fat in certain places for womanhood, babies later in life, and guys as well when I started dating. Yet she told me this awful story of how her cousin had used a tampon one day and somehow could not take it out so they had to rush her to the emergency room and remove it for her. So not only was I embarrassed at being a late bloomer in front of my friends, not knowing what was going in my body although all my friends and family knew, plus scared and ashamed of the cycle but now I was terrified of ever using tampons because they might get stuck or something would go wrong.